I Don't Want To Talk About It

I Don't Want To Talk About It

Normally, most people would like to talk things out when something went wrong or when they are going through a really tough time. However, I'm different. I let things bottle up inside of me even when I know the consequences of it. Talking about it when I'm not ready to will only make me feel worse than I did before. People would pester me to the point where I just burst out, letting the flood gate open to allow everything I've been feeling to flow rapidly out of my eyes. My friends would say that I had an "emotionally break-down" in such a negative way or an excuse. Is it bad that I cry? Is it bad that I allow silence to be my voice when I can't use my own? Is it bad that I try to work everything out at different angles only for it to never work out in the end? Is it bad that I stress out to the point where I just want to spend the whole day staring at the ceiling thinking everything is impossible? Absolutely not. That's who I am. That's what makes me human. Just because talking about it works for mostly everyone, that doesn't mean it is the best way for me. I like to be alone. I like to process information on my own. I like asking for help when I feel like I need it. When I say I don't want to talk about it, I really don't want to talk about it.